This is my fourth attempt at a blog. Let's hope it sticks. I would verbally vomit (or type-vomit, if you will) these long, emotional stories, post them and then become immediately embarrassed and take them down.

There are a few things I want to accomplish here. The first would be getting myself "un"embarrassed enough to post my actual name and picture. That may come last though. Second, I want to unpack all the baggage I've been carrying around for way too many years, but I want to do it in a productive way. 

As is the human condition, I know there are too many people like me floating around aimlessly. If I can provide any comfort to anyone, it's worth it. For me, hiding my shite is allowing it to define who I am. I'm hoping that by putting it out there I can move on. Even if no one actually reads this as there are about 1.8 gazillion blogs out now. Yes, 1.8 gazillion. I counted. And, third, I want to post any resources I have found to be insightful or provoking and share them. I'm learning a lot about myself (whether I like it or not) and I want to spread the wealth...in a non-commie way. Or maybe exactly in a commie way. Kidding. This is not a political blog in any way. (Felt like I needed to point that out for some reason.)

So, a little about me...I've been in and out of therapy going on 15 years now and while I have learned a lot, I am definitely (and unfortunately) not done yet. And, as I figure out one thing about myself, two more things pop up in its place.

I believe the core of all of my problems is low self-esteem. Yes, that's right, good ol' low self-esteem, bad self-image, insecurity, and all that fun stuff. Nothing this world hasn't seen a million times before. But for me it's different because it's my shite, and I'm a snowflake, dammit.

I would love to lay out all my crap for you here and now but that might ruin the magic that is to come. Besides, that's one thing I've learned recently. Full disclosure up front, not always a good thing. Lesson learned.

Until next time...